Rituals and grief

I hope we have papas service soon. I need the ritual of grieving to help me handle these emotions. Most fulfilling grieving process ever was when I helped wash and prepare the body of a dear friend. It was an honor and moving. We have so few rituals these days. We ignore our human need for the formal closure and grief. Struggling some with the loss of papa tonight. He was a complex man. Not very nice growing up, I was an adult before I grew to appreciate and truly love him. Gosh I miss him dreadfully.